Scrambled Eggs

No, I'm not talking about my breakfast preference although as I sit in the waiting room ready to start my second IVF round that sounds appealing as its early morning and I'm starving. Instead I started off this day at 7 am by getting the expected expensive deposit, 2 attempts at getting my blood drawn and a good morning hello of a speculum for my sonogram. And all during the hectic, wonderful whirlwind of the first week of school. The eggs I'm talking about are the actual eggs inside of my body. For the last round of IVF I was so excited that my body responded so well to the hormones only to be disappointed that the eggs that were retrieved seemed to literally scramble overnight taking it from 7 embryos to 2. Since the failed first attempt all I have been able to think about is why are my eggs scrambling and what I could do to prevent that. Could I talk to my body and request that my eggs go over easy this time? Oh I wish. I've never felt so helpless with control as I have within my body on this infertility road. But seriously I've been trying to research if there's anything that can help improve the quality because of course I feel I have to do something to try to help myself. I got excited when I found a multivitamin on Amazon that claimed to help improve the quality of the eggs so $22 later it was upsetting to learn I had to take them three times a day, and that along with making me a moodier nightmare to be around than usual they turned my urine neon, radioactive looking, yellow. So they were ditched three days in because on top of everything else who wants radioactive looking urine to worry about? The fertility specialists say there's nothing I can do to help improve the quality of the eggs and that we just have to see how my body responds to this round which they've adapted to micro IVF. We'll see what that means as we embark on this round of adapted hormones and shots, but here's hoping the micro means sunny side up! And that I'll have happy, healthy, unscrambled eggs after retrieval for this round.